Letting Go
This domain is 5 years old today. Before that, I blogged on another domain, serenity-quest.com, that I let expire after my custody trial. Through the years, personal blogging has made both a positive and a negative impact on my life. I have met a lot of great people, learned a lot about myself, yet in the end, it has always left a bitter taste in my mouth. I have stopped blogging before, and I have missed it and come back to write occasionally when the mood strikes. However, if I really give it a lot of thought and analyze the pros and cons, this blog has probably done more harm than good to how I feel about a lot of things.
I have met people through blogging who have changed my life, some positive, some negative. Someone who I would have never met without this blog died last week, and I feel like I am a better person for having met and known him. I still have a few ideas and projects going on, but I don’t think I want to write personally anymore, I feel that sense of burnout that you get when you have held on to something for too long, even when you know you should accept its finality.
I am sure that I will occasionally want to post here, and maybe will even have a different frame of mind at some point and consider myself full of it and that I only feel this way because I am mourning the loss of so many things, so many people, while celebrating the entry of the good and new things.
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
July 1st, 2008 at 1:55 pm
I shall miss you. Thank you for all your help. You gotta do what cha gotta do. Godspeed Trish.
July 2nd, 2008 at 1:57 pm
Hrm. Well…you have to do what’s right for you. I know there have been times when I just didn’t have it in me to keep a blog going. And other times where I’m not sure I’d have stayed sane without it.
If you do decide to keep writing, here or elsewhere, I hope you’ll let me know where you are!
July 3rd, 2008 at 12:50 pm
You were my inspiration to start. And because of you I have met some fascinating and amazing people. From teh bottom of my hear, Thank you for that.
July 7th, 2008 at 11:41 pm
Trish, I am sad to hear such sorrow in your ‘voice’… I thought I would share something with you that was bitter sweet at the time of its writing:
http://www.changeforge.com/?s=simpler+times
July 11th, 2008 at 10:50 am
I just happened to stop by today, to see what you were up to. You’ve always been one of my favorite bloggers and I hope to see you around again. Believe me, I know what you’re feeling.
July 19th, 2008 at 10:17 pm
I hope you do return. I had only recently started reading your blog, and you have a beautiful way of expressing yourself.
July 22nd, 2008 at 5:19 pm
Damn. I’m going to miss reading here. I will of course stop by from time to time hoping, but not expecting, an update. Hopefully, I will occasionally be pleasantly surprised
All the best to you and your son, Trish!